About Us

For a long time, I had a relatively distorted vision of my own authenticity which eventually led to compromise my identity and “how I wanted to show-up in the world”. I was always showered with the goody compliments “she has no ego”, “she never got into fight with anyone” “she is so quiet and tranquil”, “she just blended in with environment in an unassuming manner”, “she is so versatile and all-rounder”, well this sounded very satisfying to hear; however, it never fulfilled the void in my SOUL. Nevertheless, it was in these recent years where I realized I deliberately chose to express myself in such way without being aware, under high compulsion just only to get myself accepted into the social groups, unfamiliar environments or just out of the fear to save myself from a unpredictable danger. To say in others words, I had pushed my emotions below my conscious awareness all these years.

Time after time, I was fed up with being labeled as a “Such a nice girl”, I agree, it might be genuine comment from someone, however, at point I knew why I was being called with the term “Nice”, it was just because me being compulsively putting other’s expectations and need ahead of my own, pretending to agree with opinions although finding them repellent and unacceptable, it made me fulfill the criteria of what others expected of me. But, it disconnected me from myself.

After a very long period of my life what hit me was “I was living on the trauma responses and it expressed in the disconnection from self even in the absence of abuse and overwhelming threat.”